Shin-Akujin

when the world feels like dying, the hate is flowing, my heart screaming for salvation, and all I bleed is hate. nightmares the came, false angles in my heart, pain is all that remains, forever lost to you, hopless thoughts in my mind, my heart is bleeding, inside I die more each day. Locked away in my desert prison, alone in a sea of faceless people, thoughtless minds, loveless hearts. I live on forever frozen here, as I watch the world move on without me.

Seeking sanity's blessing in a lost and loney world, the icy wind howling in the back of my mind. Feeling it all slip away, all that I cared for is lost anway. Whne someone seeks the end to find a new begining, is this person wrong? Or is it life's only Truth?

I have alot of things firing off inside my mind, I'm being pulled and pushed in every direction all at once, or so it seems. I've been a broken mess, and venom runs through my veins, trying to find a shread of truth in the lies I've been told, and the ones that I tell myself to try to keep a hold on what I want to be real. Always fighting to keep my illusion together, but I still see the cracks in the glass, much like the cracks in my heart, and I know that things aren't as real as I want them to be, and I wonder how they ever could be.

Haunted by these memories of what once was, the old scars never heal, my heart still yearns for that time, when I thought I knew what happiness was. I miss you, even though I know you probably dont miss me, I hate what happened, these wounds will never heal. I want to hold you in my arms one last time, to know what that feels like once again. If nothing else, at least to say a proper goodbye. Ever haunted at night, the memories keep me awake, so full of pain, so full of poison running though my heart, pumping it through my mind, the immages of what I lost flow, time and time again, flowing like blood.